A Clandestine Life…

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A Clandestine Life…
A silhouette in the darkness walking away, a human being that believes love exists. The fear of parting hangs heavily in the air. A clandestine life revealed and dies!

 

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AUTHOR’S NOTE: I wrote a short story about two people who lived within the secrecy of an affair. She believed that love did exist one must only search for it. He lived with the fear of being caught. She found that what she thought was love was only the need to be loved not pure physical love. He was caught and ended the affair, as pastor of a local church he lost more than secret love, his secret life exposed; he took his own life. The story died as well and all that was left was the words written in “A Clandestine Life”. My question, should I finish the story, is the idea believable?
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Fear or Greed…

 

Fear or Greed…
Evidence clear about an unwanted Soul, upon conception the vessel sheltering it wanted to cast it away, fear or greed. One life could not see a future; starvation did not kill the seed, fear or greed.

Why did the tiny Soul survive, destiny or fate; it survived a life without love never held by the one that should have loved her; their heart filled with hate. The new Soul born within a life of oppression from the moment of birth; scared and burdened with emotional wounds throughout its journey on earth.

All of its tomorrows’ found the Soul’s path long and steep; it searched a lifetime to find out why the insane anger ran so deep. Truth in its abandonment never found; this abused Soul tried to remember that sanity and sorrow are closely bound.

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AUTHOR’S NOTE: There may be no one to love you but you!  Love thyself and do not waste time on what might have been and was not.
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Feathered Angels…

 

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Feathered Angels…

I have enough memories from the past to last me for the rest of my life. My unstinted memory will not bury them so deep that I cannot bring them to the surface in a moment’s notice.

In the deep recesses of my mind, I see a small country church, a chorus of crows; the splashing sounds of the brook running through the Birch trees. The wind caressing the colossal row of Oaks in the field. All memories from my early days.

I see death, going down the road moving away from the weathered house of worship, a wagon that carried my beloved great-grandmother; I envisioned it being followed by feathered angels. No longer will the little branch of water beneath the Birch taste fresh and cool, nor will the winds surrounding the Oaks in the pasture embrace warm flesh.

I relive a sad memory, my great-grandmother’s heart had been silenced, and the rocker on the porch stilled, no hand wave’s goodbye. In a cobwebbed corner of the room where she slept, the sun shines through a cloudy window, as the image of tattered curtains dance in a nearby cracked mirror. Everyone we love soon leaves us. Sitting on the steps of that old weathered church, I have but one memory it is that childhood is dead.

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AUTHOR’S NOTE: My Native American great-grandmother lived 105 years 1849 – 1954. She lived through 23 presidents. American Indian Wars; Civil War; Red River and Pine Ridge; Spanish American War; Philippine-American War; Crazy Snake Rebellion; Battle of Ganghwa-Korea; WWI; WWII; Korean; and her last battle with death 1954. She was raised Chickasaw in the Black Warrior Forest Alabama. Worked on a Plantation; Lived in Slave Quarters; Lived a prominent life in Birmingham Alabama and Died in the arms of her grandson, my daddy.
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The Gilded Gate…

Dreaming – The Gilded Gate…

Thunder bellows from the sky, descending to valley floor, it roused me from a deep sleep; the one lying beside me does not move, they do not wake. It quickly becomes darker; the profound sounds hold angrily above the valley they bounce off the forest, trees sways in the wind. Without warning, the winds spiral upward into the thunder and lightning. The valley was like a ringed abyss. The wind continued like torment and blaspheming.

A sadness began to settle in, is this the outer certainty of hell? I questioned my faith, would my lover and I die within this doomed place, God please hear my pleading. I cried. Did I fall asleep, did I fall into a restless dream, and then an obedient voice was heard. Within this dream. I witnessed countless people, their hopelessness as they walked slowly through a gate.

The dream continued on, leaving me bewildered in my darkest deepest sleep. Then rose a widening light, it filled half of the darkness, “Who Master are those that walk through the gilded gate”. My master smiles at me, it was then that the gate opens to me wide green lawns stretched as far as the eyes could see. Then marvelous spirits approached. I moved quickly trying to walk into the moving light.

I woke and the darkness fell around me, the wind had left the valley, I would live for another day.

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AUTHOR’S NOTE: A Dream

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Excerpt: Poetry from Rhythm Rhyme Thoughts

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Dance

My life was not to be, it stopped, astonished, I hold to the memory as you would a child upon your lap, I grow old without growing. I most frequently return the grave. The grave will not give up my child. I am an old woman with nothing left but memories.

I have no home to go back too, no one wants me to visit, aunts, uncles all dead. No longer does anyone whisper of them. I wish the people of my youth were gathered in one place. Nevertheless, it was not to be, not for me, no mother, no father, their all in the graveyard.

The child in me is ready to go home, to change, and to stand by the road crying out “I am home”. I stand on the stump of my childhood. Life is still lost. The branches of my tree are barren, only air fills that space. The world that was my world.

I am all burned out, a flash in a century, now ash. No one notices me here on the stump by the road, the sap runs out of the trees; I too will soon do the slow dance toward my permanent home.

Copyright 2018

 

 

The Certainties of Life…

The Certainties of Life…

Life is an uncertain race where most people do no more than run in place, there can be happiness, sadness, and around every corner a surprise; yet hope blooms.

Life is what one must create within their allotted space, or sit on the sidelines and wait leaving their journey to fate.

Life is not all joy floating upon the winds of time; there are rights and wrongs; and unknown quandaries, setbacks, and living means moving forward.

Life quickly passes, fair and cloudy days, laughter and tears, and then the warmth of the sun subsides ones fears.

Life may mean walking in the valleys of despair until fate starts an upward climb, living with happiness, or grief; always trust the heart and mind.

Life lived in harmony with others, loving, caring and expectations met; seeds of livelihood sown, repentance locked away for God to judge; we strive and labor until we pass on.

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AUTHOR’S NOTE: A poem

 
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Dreaming Life is Fine, Fine as Honeydew Wine…

 

Life is Fine

Dreaming Life is Fine, Fine as Honeydew Wine…

I was walking down a dusty road toward Flint Creek; I sat on the bridge, muddy water rushing twenty feet below me. I slid with ease off the rough planks into the Creek; I sank to the bottom. I was a motherless child. I broke the muddy water with unrestrained speed, I rose from the dank depths and gasp for air, the second time I emerged I swam to the slippery bank heaved myself onto its clay sides. The water was cold; I wiped tears from my eyes, if it had not been for the Angel I would have died. I cried I am a motherless child.

There beneath the cold muddy water swam an Angel, she smiled shaking her head; go home she spoke softly in my ear, life is not always fair but you have nothing to fear. Still, I was a motherless child. Then, I was at the fork of the road, one lead home the other up the mountain where sheer cliffs towered over the land. I stood there, I scream; I am a motherless child.

I looked around, beneath those gray menacing cliffs I did not die. I had been trying to live since the day I was born; tossed out like yesterdays trash, no one could hear me scream, no one could hear me cry; no one cared if I was a motherless child. I knew that my heart would always call this land home. I prayed that life would be fine; as fine as Honeydew wine! I had lived through those early years, I am a survivor, even though I was a motherless child.
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AUTHORS NOTE: FLINT CREEK NEAR THE UNINCORPORATED TOWN OF FLINT IS LOCATED IN MORGAN COUNTY, ALABAMA

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